oats, nuts and honey

evansville tomorrow. as well as tux pants and passport pictures. and hopefully a shower.

cumpleanos feliz

happy birthday on this day of the 23rd to my friend Zach!



((and Dave too))

my epiphany

so just to warn you future readers, this post gets kinda personal. so don't delve in unless you want to.

so i kinda had a life-changing realization today in church. I'm really not sure what brought it on, besides God Himself. I just realized that for a long time now I haven't been letting God control my life and really wasn't on the right page with him relationship-wise. Well I think I already knew that, so maybe I more realized that I needed to change this and make it right. Then I got to thinkin about it, and realized how many things God used to make me realize this. I can't list them all.. Some of it was seeing some of my friends who really love God and really wanted to do what He wanted. the book Blue Like Jazz helped me see a lot of things in a different light. I think I've also realized, especially in these past months, how sinful man is. Not just sinful, but selfish and stupid and evil and if left to his own devices, will just screw things up. I saw this in my own life. I've become overly selfish, bitter, moody and even a little depressed in the past months. This is what happens when you don't let God work in your life. but when I think about all of it, it just really amazes me how all the circumstances just became so perfect for CHANGE. and then that makes me think how He orchestrated that in my life, he was using those to open my eyes! gah. it just gets me all emotional thinking about it. I guess the thing that really was the last trigger and the straw that broke the camels back was the issue of going on this missions trip to Ecuador with my church. At first, I just wrote it off as another youth group trip I wouldn't be going on. My mom encouraged me to think and pray about it though, and one of my friends did as well since she was going. Well I really got thinkin about it this morning, and heard the Pattons speak and Pastor Whipple speaking about missions, and it was during this that I had my epiphany.

I've actually gotta go because I have to leave soon to go to small group. That's one of the things I need to change. Getting more involved in church. that and so much more.... I will probably finish this post later when I have more time so I can explain more and even explain why I wanted to write it, but please just be praying for me.

It's amazing how He works. and can forgive soo much.

i shot a man in reno just to watch himm diiie

zero homework this weekend, well, excluding two trig problems which I will be doin in my first-period study hall of our half day on monday! so today was quite a lazy day. slept in. really did not a lot. had to start cleaning my room, which was just atrocious. utterly atrocious. there were so many clothes on the floor that i just had to pile them all on my bed to see their extent. psh i haven't even finished. i've decided i need to update a lot of the pictures in room! yeeeah.

my quote of the day, stolen from seasons 1.....

"ew! ew! ugly-naked guy got a thigh master!"

bored

FABA is today and so we've been doing nothing at all at school and so I'm in study hall updating my stupid blog!

1) I had a lovely birthday... thanks to all who contributed, you know who you are.
2) Rachel deleted her blog! i won't comment any further.
3) Going out to eat tonight at McGraws... Mmmm....

Lunch beckons.

looking up

he said i'm gonna buy a gun and start a war
if you can tell me something worth fighting for
oh and i'm gonna buy this place that's what I said
Blame it upon a rush of blood to the head.

tar.hay

ooo target is such a commodity!
especially for its rain-filled parking lots to stand in and talk to your girls about minks!