look at the big picture

On this Saturday evening, I watched a Robin Williams movie with my mom called Final Cut. It was set in the future where implants could be put into people that record everything they see. Zoe implants. Then, when the person died, the implant could be taken to a person called a "cutter" who edited the film so that it could be shown at a ceremony to remember the person's life called a "rememory." Without getting too much into the main plot of the movie... it just provoked a thought. Imagine your whole life is recorded. This brings up so many questions!! Is what I'm doing worthwhile? If someone were to watch my whole life, would it just be a whole bunch of common random events or would it tell a story, would it mean something? And then the question of when you're caught up in the moment.... when you're having that fit of rage and it seems sooo important at the time: important that your way is the right way, or that you defend yourself and get what you deserve. when i think about those moments that i so often find myself in, it is most often those i would choose to erase because i realize how petty and insignificant those moments were in the whole scheme of things. i guess you call that living in the moment, existentialism. i tend to do that a lot. along with freaking out about things that don't deserve any worry at all. well in the movie, there were also people who were anti-implant because they thought it was changing the world-- people were watching what they said or did because they self concious of this recording. if we knew what everything we did would be watched by all our friends and family... would we still do it? say it? well i have bad news. if you think thats an uncomforting thought, think of this: your friends and family won't be the ones watching your life, a perfect, holy God will be. when we live knowing that we have to give account for our living, it changes things. i just wish that could always be on my mind. things seem so much clearer when i have that principle in view. sorry if i sound like i'm sending everyone on a guilt trip, not trying to. on a more encouraging note, remember those questions like "am i doing anything worthwhile..." well its good to know that we have hope in that if we're following after God we are definitly doing something worthwhile!
wow I didn't actually mean to write so much. I've noticed I've been talking/blabbering on a lot lately... apparently it's running over into my typing as well.